I think when you have a blog that two people read, and you don't post for months on end, it turns out that zero people read it. Hrm.
I guess I put nothing here because it would seem there's nothing much to say. Perhaps it's my own fault, I don't always pick the paths of great diversity and excitement. Seems that I exercise, go to work, eat, play ball on the weekends, and that's it. Wait, it doesn't just seem that way, it is that way.
Now I'm (yet again) super-irritated with the blogger software. The archives seem completely broken for this blog, I dare not touch my template, and I never did recover admin rights for the comments used here.
As for playing "blog catch-up", here's the rundown. I know, so cliched.
I bought yet another paint marker. This time, an Angel Speed. I know, I should stop, really. It's just, this thing fires fast easy like no other, I can't even load it fast enough. I think I've dry fired it in excess of 20 balls a second!
SC Village is out of control. I think there's been fights the past 3 sundays they've been open. Ridiculous. Last weekend, supposedly some police were on one side of the fight. Even better. Are people pounding hormones before they get to the fields or what?!? If somebody with a marker gets upity and looks like they're going to start a fight, just walk. Being able to deal with pain at high speed is hardly preferable over a little pride. Hopefully some sponsorships start getting yanked and the freaks wake up.
I got asked to join a sponsored team. The Keebler team, no less. I know, laugh, make elves jokes. But in a sport that's still small time, having a recognizable name goes a real long way. Let's see how that works out. I really enjoy playing alongside some of their front guys, it's a confident feeling.
The summer is drawing near (or is it here?) so that means I get to start my trips up to Mammoth again. That's good news, since our PTO is capped at 160 hours now. I keep having to take a couple hours here and there to make sure I don't lose time I could accrue. I know, tough life.
Finally ordered a new computer. Hopefully I'll be able to re-encode my CD collection to mp3 in a reasonable amount of time. This after losing it all on a bad drive a while back. Served me right, no backups.
Work is still near terminally boring.
Again with summer upon us, that means it's wedding season. Guess who's probably bailing on any such events this summer, too. That's right, me. Love sucks, that's my story, I'm sticking to it and not participating. Selfish freak, I know.
I've started exercising again. I was walking at night for a while. Now I've switched to a combination of walking and running in the morning. That really messes me up, I'll be at work feeling like it's 3pm, when it's only 1:30. Also working on some stretching and *ahem* pilates to strengthen my midsection. All this to cure a bad back. Surprisingly enough, it's helping. Granted, it's not fixed or anything, but the pain in my lower back is less frequent and severe now. Here's hoping it will continue to help.
I've been considering my perspective on relationships lately. Holy cow, I'm bitter, oh so bitter. I guess I'd sum it up by saying I feel neither the capability nor desire to be a knight in shining armor to anybody, though an entire industry has sprung up reinforcing the idea that should I fall short of that, well, I can forget it. I say, enough of that let down garbage, forget that. Did I say I was bitter already?
My life seems to come down to escapism now. What else can I say. Put the TV on, or, go run (from something) while listening to music, play paintball, talk about paintball, process spam garbage, whatever it takes. It's pure survival now, baby. Avoid thinking or feeling at all costs, get with the program, yea.
The newest AFI cd rocks. If you can't deal with goth/punk whining at times, stay far away. But, I for one think their guitarist does a pretty cool job. Sure he's no Vai, but it's fun listening.
I think I'll stop now and save some for later. posted by Brendon at 4:26 PM
