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I should add, with comments now, if you're reading, chime in on this post. I'd be curious to get the count of how many stop by here. I assume I get most new visitors by way of biolachris.

The word of the day is narcissism.
posted by Brendon at 12:51 PM

 
I finally got around to getting comment ability, courtesy of enetation. I'm not too comfortable putting all this data (ok, there's not that much, and it's not that important) on the systems of others, but, it's ok I guess...blah. The template needs work, but, it's functional for now.

It's funny putting up comments. I know barely anybody is reading this page (maybe 3 people), but there's this tiny thought I have that it will cause me to be more hesitant in my postings because people can now respond. Know what I mean?
posted by Brendon at 12:13 PM

 
I find myself wishing I could go on eloquenty and/or profoundly today, but I'm just not up to it. So instead, I'll just throw my thoughts up in list format.

• I'm bummed that J had to "resign". He deserved more support than he got.


• I still wish Ally would cally me or write or something, but I know she won't.


• I want a vacation, I want to get away from it all.


• I watched an hourlong clip of an Ani DiFranco concert last night. I don't agree with her 100% obviously, but, she's an amazing artist and performer. I wanted to play, write and perform after it was done.


• Some kind of light as to where I'm heading would be nice, things feel so stagnant lately. Maybe that's why I want the aforementioned vacation


• I want a paintball team to practice, not necessarily to compete with


• I miss happiness. Some things kinda pass for it or obscure the desire these days, but it's still not there.


• I'm uncomfortable with how many of these lines start with "I"


• It would be nice to believe that love is for me and not just other people. That's how I've felt for a long time now.

So I'm asking myself now, is this written more for my future reference, or other people? I think the answer is both. Curious.
posted by Brendon at 10:58 AM

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I pretty much stayed off the internet during my weekend vacation, therefore the lapse in posting.

My weekend was rather relaxing. Didn't get to play paintball both days, but Sunday was enough. I think there were 25 people to start, that's near a record number for the field. A great time was had by all.

Let me just say, my brother is a monster. He rides bikes occassionally, but it's not really an exercise for him. On saturday, he rode 30 miles. That's alot for most non-cyclists, but, mind you this is at 7500 feet! Crazy.

So this morning, one of my roommates tells me that two girls from the high school youth group I was in got in a bad car wreck. I knew one of them pretty well when I worked there, don't remember the other as much. Unfortunately, she died. I'm so glad however, that the other pulled through. I mean, I'm not happy that anybody died, but I'm thankful it wasn't the both of them.

What's odd is that my roommate IMs me and says "have you heard the bad news?" and all I could think was one thing. I just sat there thinking he was going to say that Jon and Jess got in a car accident driving home last night. It sounds a bit twisted, but to be honest, I was relieved to hear other news. It got me thinking again though, about things unsaid that shouldn't be left that way.
posted by Brendon at 10:22 AM

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